A good day

Today was a great day. I finalized my contract for my new job as a nanny. I am really excited to start because not only will I be able to support my daughter and I, but its also a rare position that allows me to bring Savannah with me. Which is good because I couldnt bare to leave her all day. 

Easter was last weekend and I got to spend some much needed time with my mom and my little brother. I see him getting bigger and I remember when he was savannahs age and it occurs to me... Savannah will be 9 years old one day too. Its such an incredible thing to think about because I already see her growing up so fast and developing her own little personality and it brings so many emotions. I am so beyond happy that she is a happy healthy child. But at the same time it makes me sad that she is growing up so quickly. I want to cherish every second with her that I can. Even though the waking up early and the cranky  times and the financial struggles are hard... I know that one day Ill wake up and she will be 5 years old and off to school and Ill long for the days where she woke up in the middle of the night and just wanted to cuddle with momma. Even now as she sleeps in her crib I have to fight the urge to go look at her every 2 minutes... It never ceases to amaze me just how much I love this little girl. 

Its days like today that give me hope for the future. I know that things wont be easy.. I know that for a long time I will struggle. I will have to work my butt off, learn to stretch a dollar, and go without the luxuries I have been used to most my life... like cable, or new clothes for myself. But in the end its worth it. Its worth the sacrifice, I wouldnt have it any other way.. and every time my little girl smiles at me I know that she loves me just as much as I love her... And thats enough to get me through any hard time. 

Savannah Rae... Your mom loves you. And you will always know that... ill make sure of that.