Wishing I could sleep

Savannah had a rough night tonight... fought sleep for a long time. Now she is finally cozied up in her crib asleep... so why am I still laying here in bed awake? I suppose it has alot to do with the fact that I have been feeling a bit down the last few days. I feel like my life is at a stand still. I have always been the kind of person that wants things to happen the way I want in the time that I want... but life always seems to get in the way. I am stuck in limbo waiting for school to start and waiting to find a job and waiting to get money saved up... I feel like the waiting will never end. All I want is to get my life going so that I can get Savannah's life more stable in a home of our own and being independent of my family. Even though I am so thankful that my family has been so supportive and I know that I am a good mom and that I am doing the best that I can. I just wish that time could move more quickly... I wish that I had something more insightful and uplifting to write tonight but I am exhausted and I dont really have much to say! ahaha... however. I am sure I can come up with something witty and charming later this week. Perhaps if I had a band of loyal followers I would write more.... wink wink.