Somebody that I used to know

I think that it might actually be ending this time. I really do not know what is going on inside his head but for some reason I feel like the end is near. I thought that I would be more sad about this thought. That is the surprising thing. I feel fine. Actually I feel nothing. I feel absolutely nothing at all. I am losing the man that I thought I would be with forever.. and I don't care. Its not like I don't care about him in general or that I want to break up at all. But my heart is just so damaged that I literally no longer have the ability to feel anything at all. Today he called me names and yelled at me and told me that he didn't want to be around me. And then when I inquired as to why he did not want to be around me he asked, "well why would I want to be around you when you are being a psycho bitch." That is something that I completely do NOT tolerate. AT ALL. I am over it. I think that that comment just completely turned my heart off all together. I refuse to be treated like that once again. I have been with too many people that have spoken to me like that, like I was just a piece of shit that isn't worthy of common decency and respect. I am over it. I am done. He sits there like nothing matters to him and I believe it. I believe that I don't matter to him. I don't know what he is still doing here? I have no emotion anymore. I am dead inside, congrats Brian, you finally killed me. I have been crushed so many damn times and now the camels back has officially been broken and I can not handle any more. Its actually kind of refreshing. Now I never have to worry about being sad or let down anymore because I just expect it so its normal, and I don't care.