if youre going through hell

Life is incredibly frustrating. I have so many things that I need to get accomplished and not enough time to do them. I am trying to get Savannah enrolled in the daycare at the college and that is proving to be more difficult than expected. I am still waiting to hear from my job to see when they want me to start working. I am in dire need of financial security, I am so sick of being broke its starting to really wear on me. I am constantly stressed out and it is starting to make me sick. Today I threw up blood.. twice. I'm no doctor, but I don't think that is a sign of good health. I am in constant pain because I am pretty sure that I had another cyst rupture. It sure feels like it anyways. Savannah has been a real handful these past few days. It appears I have hit the terrible twos a bit early. So basically that is my life lately. I registered for classes for this quarter and I am going to have classes every day of the week which is somewhat intimidating but I know I can do it. I did a damn good job last quarter and the quarter before that so school I am not very worried about. Its everything else that is concerning me. I am just so worried that I am not going to be able to do it all. I thought that having Caitlin move in with me would make everything easier but its only stressing me out more. She is as broke as I am so she isn't able to pay what we originally agreed on which is frustrating because getting a roommate made it so that Savannah had to lose her room and its not even helping that much. I mean don't get me wrong, I like having her here.. except that she insists on dressing like a slut and I don't really like that since my boyfriend is here too and I would prefer that he doesn't have temptation walking around the house in a shirt that would fit my 1 year old. But oh well... what are ya gonna do? I just have to deal with it. There are a lot of things that I have come to realize that I am just going to have to deal with. A LOT OF THINGS. But I guess that's life. And the truth is that if Brian were to ever cheat on me than he is not the man that I am meant to spend my life with. I just have to have faith that he loves me enough to stay away from that temptation. I mean Caitlin may be hot.. but she is a horrible person sometimes. She is trying to get pregnant right now with a guy that she has barely known a month... and she isn't telling him. She just stopped taking her birth control. And it is really fucked up because he doesn't deserve to be played like that. But then again she is lying to him about everything else so I guess one more thing shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone. I guess there are a lot of things that have been starting to really get to me. But its like the song says. If your'e going through hell... keep on going.